your secrets are safe with me.

disclaimer: not for the faint hearted ( like me)

like seriously, i thought: how bad can a blood test be? i mean, it's not like im undergoing some invasive surgery, it's just a small teeny needle.. right?

but the worse part came when the stupid nurse couldnt find my vein and kept poking me in all directions... i don't know why, it wasnt extremely painful, but i just kept crying and crying profusely.. probably cux i was already feeling insecure about going alone to take a blood test ( despite the brave front i gave my mom-- if my sister could do it herself, surely i could rise to the occassion too-- i kinda regretted doing this by myself when i stepped into the lab). it was just so difficult to remain calm when you know someone's going to inflict pain( somewhat) on you.

and i know i didnt make the whole thing easy for the nurse; she was trying to hold still my hand while i tried to evade the needle, but i couldn't control myself because it was sheer instinct. it seems like im making a mountain out of a molehill, which i probably am cux there's like a billion people out there who have gone through worse things like cancer and whatever it is.

yet when you fear, the emotions you feel get magnified by a thousand times more, and you finally understand why you cry so much inside.