your secrets are safe with me.

I've been lying to myself. To people around me who care about me. I've been telling myself that i'm not affected by it, showing my nonchalant attitude, but truth is it really affects me. alot alot. i feel quite hurt and extremely tired from all of this shit.. and i've decided i shouldn't let it bother me anymore since she doesn't care anyway.

i mean. when u give up on a friendship just cause of a stupid misunderstanding just means that u probably dun cherish it anyway. okay i admit. it's my fault but i've already apologized for the umpteenth time already and its a MISUNDERSTANDING for goodness sake. why can't you bury the hatchet and try to forgive and forget.. so you are willing to forsake a friendship for this trivial thing? i really cannot understand.. or maybe there was no friendship between us at all.

i think. you should reflect upon yourself about how your actions have affected many other people to care about her other than me. it's okay if its just me alone. but you make others who care about you and whom you care about( obviously not me) worry all the time.. i'm hurt by your actions. by the way you treat our friendship. by your evaluation of me just by one incident. am i such a person in your eyes. perhaps i am. i don't care anymore. your friendship was cherished by me; but i'm not sure if u reciprocate mine.