your secrets are safe with me.

exams are finally over and im thinking less and less about the mistakes i made... seriously i know it's no use crying over split milk, but i just can't help it. and it really sucks too, cux it haunts me every night.

and it scares me that friends around me might one day never be around anymore because they are the ones in my life that make me sad, happy, overwhelmed angry. life is really precious because its a miracle in itself to have one. there shouldn't be any reason to take it away, no matter how serious things are. i might sound angry but im really more worried than furious at you. it's not the theory whether one should control his and her own life but rather the fact that i cherish you as my friend so you should cherish your life too.

i don't know why im so worriesome! but there's always God to answer my calls and to soothe me of my worries. i know cux God has worked wonders for me and he has answered me! i think. i know. i think im ready, finally, to take the next step forward. i've been stuck in a rut for such a long time i thought i would never get out of it. it's a sense of release, knowing finally what you need to do and what you should do. it sounds like i need an external locus of control, but i don't. i just need guidance.

i have high levels of neuroticism. i get anxious over everything. HOWHOW im gg to da bao for NBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gah. im gg to fail my sem. fail fail fail.

im gg to calm down abit.

just a little observation from yours truly.

when u see only one amongst the rush of people.

that is the one.

hmmm no wonder they say love is blind.

i guess in that sense. it is true.

how easy it is to see through someone. or maybe i'm just skeptical of everyone.

it's less than 24 hours away fr my first end of sem exam...

time seems to pass by so fast when you're caught in a rush. suddenly you just wake up and realise you got yourself trapped in it all and you know its really too good to be true. and at crossroads, you don't know what to choose.. and the thing is, you know very well what lies ahead in each of these paths but the sacrifice that entails these 2 paths seem to be too great.

the agony of choosing.

it's not that i don't believe, it's just that i need more time, time to come to terms with it, time to get ready for You. don't ask me what's stopping me from being ready. i don't know, i really don't. maybe it's the fact that i am reluctant ( the implications of it all scares me a little), maybe its him that works within me.