your secrets are safe with me.

just had lunch! i cooked!*beams* and no, i don't think i'm gonna suffer from food poisoning later. i had asparagus bacon parcels! yummy*beams again*

life has been really the same after coming back from rainy tokyo, with the earthquake and typhoon welcoming me when i was there ( how lucky can i get?) And, instead of queuing for stupid donuts in singapore, i went to queue for FAMOUS krispy kremes in tokyo while i felt the tremor of the earthquake( which happens to be quite a strong one, but luckily did not happen in tokyo). Actually i didnt know that the tremor came from the earthquake cux i DIDNT know there was one, so i continued queuing ( so did the rest of the queue, sadly). Ah, how blessed are the ignorant( not the bimbotic).

food in tokyo is fantastic ( even though i did not get to eat sashimi which is soooo ironic).. i miss the ramen sooooo much! the shop is kouryu and it has branches all across the city.. it's soooo rich in flavour! sigh. i wanna go back just to eat the ramen again. even buns and cakes from their convenience store are so soft it's like your eating white clouds! i think i'm addicted to their food. seriously.

i just did some emotional spring cleaning(: though the act may seem trivial and probably even childish to some, but it felt like a breathe of fresh air, like i could finally drop this friendship that has bothered me since i can't remember when. it's not that i don't want to remember; it hurts me too much to do so. i never liked to be on the losing end.

anw! shall stop being a drama queen or emo for now cux it's dampening everyone's mood! i got air con hall! yipppeee! though it is a little far fr biz school but its really quite nice! sorta like condo on a hill top. can't wait to move in with hongli and we can have mini sixoh gatherings ( with the seniors too!) so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s: shopping in tokyo is so fun! i heart tokyo shopping((:

i just received my yearbook and cert! after a month of forgetting, i finally climbed the hill of njc under the sweltering sun to get it. and argh. i looked horrible ( as usual) in my class photo.

i hate hate yearbook photos. it's like, they ALWAYS catch you when u're most unflattering ( like when u're opening your mouth in the size of a donut to scream on the top of ur lungs cux that's how you show your 'spirit' and your love towards the school) and they take u at an angle that shows your double or triple chin, whichever is more applicable.

and the thing is, you want to be remembered (obviously not for looking ugly) by others in a good way. we spend an unimaginable number of minutes in the toilet arranging our hair, practising our smiles that we are going to paste on our faces during the phototaking. BUT no, unfortunately it's not possible for the 90 percent of us ( do u see alot of cute guys and girls in your year book?) to look at least ourselves, if not better.

at the end of the day, when we thought that nothing could go wrong, the photos turned out to be anything but good. hair looks wrong, smiles are crooked, eyes too small, angle wrong, posture wrong.

and we laugh ( that's going to be ten years from now when we stop cringing or when we finally dare to take out our yearbooks from the dusty storeroom). it's really the memories of the school people ( your crush, friends who pon all those lectures with you, the horrible but nice teachers who can and can't teach) rather than the horrible hairstyle, or the sloppy uniform that makes the yearbook YOUR yearbook.

but that's going to be ten years from now. so excuse me, while i bury away my yearbook in my storeroom.

i feel soooooo sick. not literally of course, but argh why does one have time to do stupid, meaningless things yet none to do things that really matter? like having 938120395664322 friendster contacts yet only probably 1% of that gazillion contacts are actually life-sized friends. don't these people have any better things to do?

Granted, i don't have 9881237475211111 contacts, but i have 6 life sized, big hearted great friends, whom i really wanna pay a tribute to right now(:

to number 1 and number 2: you probably wont read this ( and no one really comes here anw lol), i really love you! it's been a great hmmm 10 years since i got to know both of you ( and it always makes me feel so old!) Although we do spend alot of time apart, im glad that we're together more often now, especially when life's trials seem to be more and not less as we grow up. from our toot toot hairstyles and (my buck teeth ) until now, i do think we've all changed on the outside ( for the better of course) but inside, we know what really matters ( duh, our friendship). i hope you guys will continue to support me, and likewise me to you for always.

to number 3 and 4: i STILL don't know how come we became good friends ( we've talked about this for a long long long time!) you guys always know how to make me feel good about myself and i love hanging out with you all. sometimes this isnt easy for we are so different and our ties seem to fade with each passing day, i hope and pray that this is only temporary, for we are all going through a transition right now. sometimes i wished somethings had not been said , and sometimes i wish i didnt say the things i said that have been real hurtful to you. and sometimes i wished i didnt judge you for the friends you hang out with, but maybe im just jealous they have you and i don't. so yeap. hope that we still have this friendship going on okie

number 5: we always get into trouble during stupid chem practicals and whatnot. i guess we're so similar yet so different that's why we click most of the times and don't sometimes. i regret not getting along with you during that period of time where it should give us the most beautiful memories, but i don't regret having you for a companion at all because your friendship is what really matters and frankly, is more beautiful than any scenery. thanks for always being a call away and being my shrine, for if it wasn't for you my brain would go wonky sooner or later. thanks for keeping me sane.

number 6: i havent always got along with you, but the present is what matters. im glad that u're there to bring colour to my boring life, to make shopping trips with me and dinners with me in town after work. what am i gg to do without my shopping partner!!!!!!! it's difficult to part and even more so for you, but im looking forward to your coming back already. life has something in store for you and me and we gotta embrace it!

and to a number 7: u may be lost to me, but never forgotten. somehow, somewhere in my heart, im always waiting for your friendship to come back. but i cant ever welcome you back with open arms, because u've broken this friendship of trust again and again.

with all this said, im gg to embrace my university years with enthusiasm! it's gonna be funnnnnn and im going to meet MR PRINCE CHARMING aka my future husband!!!!!!!!! lol.