your secrets are safe with me.

hello lovelies!

im 19 and a day old today... i'm really getting old, but birthdays are great days because i get to spend it w my friends around me.

yesterday was spent with my astatine friends ( without any common tests )! jas, net jx and ch.. it was really memorable with a lot of pleasant surprises, we had high tea at goodwood park .((:

i told net yesterday that a year ago i would have never expected to spend my birthday with this group of people, it's like we are so different and we belong to different cliques.. jas and i were virtually not speaking to each other lol, me and net are so different( yet so similar at the same time i dont really know how to explain that), and i don't really talk to the guys( the guys dun talk to me either:P) it's just so wonderfully weird how life has twisted in such a way that we can click and spend time just chatting the whole afternoon away. so funny right. i really had a great time and i smile just thinking of yesterday((:

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and on to something more perplexing. my mind's bubbling with a lot of questions that i don't have the answers to. i hate recieving signals and the more i hate deciphering them. please make it clear to me so i don't have to lose sleep thinking about it. maybe im just hallucinating i don't know but will someone please give me a clue?

work is tiring!

and i feel like im back in school again and my manager's the principal who nags at people with coloured pins cux we are all supposed to wear black accessories-.- even black accessories with coloured glitter are not allowed. i don't remember school being THAT strict. i'm sick of black, yes i am. all that being the universal colour would be thrown out of the window if you had to wear black everyday. black shoes, pants, shirt. the colour in my life is slowing draining away. don't get too shocked if u see me wearin rainbow coloured clothing, cuz that would be my most drastic measure of getting some colour in my life. it's getting boring.

i'm getting mixed signals. i don't know what is gg on or where this whole thing leads to. but yes, lets move on with things.

3 As 1 B.

everything is so surreal, it happened so fast i keep asking myself if it was a dream or something. in a few seconds, everything just came over me: the realisation, the relief, the shock, the joy. i was just really really stunned.. i believe it was the lord's good grace that i was able to achieve such good grades, but i don't know why he did that for me, and will probably never know. but i really am thankful.