your secrets are safe with me.

i think its really true that one only begins to cherish when he/she has lost something.. when it was there i would take it for granted and even treat it as non existent sometimes... but when the time comes where it slowly begins to slip through my fingers i start trying to cling onto whatever that is left because i hate losing things. i guess this is probably the human ego mechanism working inside me.. but it really goes about showing how insecure i am as a person.. the things that i've so gotten used to around me suddenly gone it's like a part of me gone.. and it breaks my routine chain and hence the feeling of being lost really gets to me.. i'm never never taking things for granted again. i promise.

my first minute being 18 was spent memorising ideal gas equation ( which just about tells you what life is all about for now)! haha! happy birthday to meeeeee((: day started at 1154 when my birdie friend xy sent me an sms to wish me happy burfday which somehow miraculously made studying a weee bit better and less tiring:)

came my physics common test which i amazingly came out with all sorts of rubbish and bullshit to fill it (as usual)... horror came when all the astatine girls sang birthday song in the middle of the hall! lol but okay to tell the truth ... heheh i was secretly pleased((: but den i realised i forgot to bring camera! so i didn't take any photos with my beloved classmates)):

den clemmie and eve went to 'visit coach' lol at first i felt a little disappointed cuz they pangsehed me! but actually went to get me pretty 'mambo goddess'. heheh i wonder who they are talking abt man. :D

hupp ilon liwen nana wengy and angie accompanied me (and helped them to stall me) to toa payoh! our exciting outing to watch final destination 3 in a ULU cinema failed when the cinema didn't show the movie! -_- " i know i know, we should have checked the timings first. but i still felt very happy cux they made the effort to accompany the boring me and made me laugh and laugh and laugh!

the happening 5 of us went to macs later to talk rubbish and we continued to laugh and laugh and laugh! teeheee but i really enjoyed their company very much..

big sista came back to celebrate my bday! with little nephew soon to be (called little nathaniel)
and bernard and my 2kg secret recipe banana chocolate cake! omg i tell u it's gigantic. like the chocolate covered cake that bruce bogtrotter ate which belonged to ms trunchbull in Matilda!! woohoo. mom made my favourite curry!!!!!! happiest day on earth man i wish everyday was like that;) thankew everyone who made this day so fun and funky for me i love you all! you guys really made my day! everyday should be my birthday lol hehe.

the people who brought me to earth and survived with my constant crying, my wuliao-ness and everything that i am. i love you

my teeny weeny little cake

okay the real one

mambo goddess((:

after 2 arduous days of battling the evil papers.. one more paper left! to fail unfortunately.. and i'm still toulan-ing here writing my blog! wahhHHHh! big problem. i just hope i get an A for maths.. chem is a huge blankout! all that organic-ing during the hols have disappeared once i stepped in the hall... :S okay my fault for not studying earlier actually. so half the paper ended up in blanks so did my brain. was laughing in the middle of the exam by myself cux the guy beside me seemed to fall into the same predicament as me.. ol wells what can i say. best of luck cux you need it as much as me if we're in da same boat.. then eeeeecons came and needless to say now i don't wonder why when mr lee told us 'a pass would be nice'. hmmmmmm. and mr rabbit im sorry all that organic-ing u did for me was in vain.. i just wished i was more determined in keeping my resolution( refer to previous entry). it's okay it's alright com'on people fight fight fight! LOVE

gp paper over! 4 more papers to go! what a consolation.. :/i can honestly say that gp test was sucky as usual.. sigh. i wish i had charlotte's flair for writing essays and application questions...i was just stoning after i read all the essay questions because there was none which i could REALLY do! and thus i ended up writing 3 paragraphs on one point which was transposed 3 times. and as for my application question i'm sure my GP tutor will salute me for my intelligence.. i'm pretty certain that she gives me a hell lot of credit for being a bimbo... *think.. my brain hurts*

the holidays have finally come... i wish there was more to my holidays than just studying and studying.. but i have resolved to work hard through this 9 days and get a satisfactory grade.. i just hope that this resolve is strong enough to withstand all temptations of shopping in town, television, my bed.. lol. i wanna go watch softball NJ vs HC! anyone wanna go with me??? the irony.

"They say that everyone has their own destiny. I wished that you could be my destiny."
extremely touching movie... cried really really badly eventhough i've watched the japanese one before and i know what happens... aiyar i'm just a sucker for cry-able movies i admit:S... it tells about two 18 year old teenagers who love each other but not meant to be... i felt so fuzzy in the heart at the end because their love for each other was so pure and innocent, and nothing seemed to stand in their way..
' i was born a week before you. so i waited alone in this world for a week without you.' i think that's sweet, don't you?
i just love the way movies make u feel... it sorts of consumes ur brain for that mere 2 hours and you just live in this world made up of the the male and female lead characters. you feel sad, happy, sympathy, indignance for them...