your secrets are safe with me.

STOP JUDGING ALREADY.
wait. how about i stop talking to you first. or replying.

see. its a self screwing thing.

am on a path to self destruction, why? because:
1) i don't know what i want
2) my emotions are overridding everything; and
3) they are highly disruptive to school work
4) laziness and sloth
5) own stomach rejecting everything. and i don't know why. maybe am bulimic. HAH.
6) i know what i need to do but clearly i'm not doing it.

ARGH.

i'm tired of you judging me all the time. and
a) you're not my boyfriend
b) i'm not your girlfriend
c) i don't even know if u're a friend!


so why do i have to freaking listen to your comments AND CHANGE MY BEHAVIOUR? and what gives you the right to judge me whatever it is? and you, calling me a flower girl IS PRETTY DAMN SHIT ASS OF YOU. just because i gave something to a few people doesnt mean that IM TRYING TO GET WHATEVER I CAN. SO WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU. CAN'T PEOPLE GIVE PRESENTS TO WHOM THEY CONSIDER FRIENDS ON VALENTINES DAY?????

AND WHY IS IT THAT SOMETIMES YOU'RE SO FREAKING NICE TO ME, BUT MOST OF THE TIME YOU JUST WANT TO TORTURE ME WITH THOSE CRUEL WORDS OF YOURS. BEING NICE DOES NOT MAKE IT UP FOR BEING F EVIL. and i hate using the f word, but there's no better way to say it than this.

I DON'T SHOW THAT I'M HURT BUT OBVIOUSLY YOU KNOW SOMETHING'S WRONG WHEN I IGNORE YOU AND I'M HAPPY TALKING TO EVERYONE AROUND EXCEPT YOU.

I'M STARTING TO REALLY REALLY DISLIKE YOU. YOU ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE FOR BULLYING ME.