your secrets are safe with me.

i seriously don't know what's wrong with me.
i know that there is something wrong. and i can feel myself changing.
sort of reverting back to who i was 10000 years ago.
ok. sort of.
but i don't understand why this backward evolution is occuring.
it's frustrating. and feels really really weird.

I know I shouldn't impose my opinions on others
and i was never so strongly opinionated.
but i know that i stand firm on my principles. maybe that's why i can't accept it when people go against their own.

I think its become hard for other people to get along with me.
it used to be more of a joke, now i think i'm carrying it to the side of truth.
I need to change, i think i need to relax.

I just think I'm starting to be the biggest bitch in the world.
bad.bad.bad.

forgetttttt.

I AM FEELING PMS-YYYYyyy!!!!

argh. it's really bloody irritating to see people i cannot stand but i really must constantly remember that people make the choices they make for reasons that not everyone can understand. Especially me.

and im constantly swaying towards different people. don't ask me why. i know that i'm acting super hypocritical and if i were anyone else i would be super pissed off and call me a 2-headed slut. but i really can't help it. sometimes different people drive me crazy; and i can't do anything about that right? I tell you, it's my mood.

and it doesn't help that i have to tell someone about it because the more i tell people about it, the more 2-headed bitch i become. but if i keep it in myself any longer, i will DIEDIEDIE out of verbal constipation. seriously. and writing it here doesn't seem to help me catharsis anymore.

i can't continue to deny the existence of people actually reading my blog.
not that i wasn't aware that setting up a blog is kinda a PUBLIC EXHIBIT, its just that it was all along a form of self denial or a case of ignorance is happiness.

and i continue lamenting. to whoever who wants to listen or has no choice but to listen( cux it's rude not to)

sigh. sorry.