your secrets are safe with me.

i think the time comes when we trash it out. i don't know what we are gg to do but i think we should do it. and it's not gg to be easy, i know. but it's obvious that we are unhappy with each others' guts so there's still the rest of the semester and im dying from keeping everything inside me already. so there.

i'm just thinking how long i can tolerate this without exploding someday. helpppppp.

im officially hating msn. gahhhh.
and school's network too. gahhhh.

msn is not working with me here today. super irritating.

anw been wanting to blog recently but didnt have the time, with work and more work gg on im going a bit crazy.. ask my friends and they will tell you i've been laughing at too much nonsensical stuff.. trust me, it keeps me sane.

lately i've been thinking about the cartoon movie lion king ( think i got inspired by some lion doctumentary that i was watching and i know u probably think that i've got better things to do and YES i do but do i want to do it?) anw. lets not digress. i think there's a fundamental problem to this whole movie, which probably remains the reason why i never liked it very much; it just doesnt make much sense. my whole point is: why is a lion made the KING?? doesn't it prey on pretty much anything that has blood and runs on 2 or more legs ( aka MOST animals in the jungle). granted, it looks majestic and everything, but HELLO i wouldnt want a king who eats my kind thank you very much. speaking of which, u dont see simba chewing on poor bambi's meat right?

i call it the disney syndrome. and the thing is, i think we all have it. it probably sounds ludicrous to you, but it makes some sense to me; well at least i think it makes sense. i say most of us have it because we always try to protray what people want to see of us and hide what conflicts with this image. like lion king, we dont see them preying and chewing on some bloody raw beef but rather, we see them fighting for the rest of the animal kingdom with bravery and blahblahblah. i guess it's partly cux we don't want to see it too ( because it's a hero what and heroes are perfect). no demand, no need to supply right?

so, u're probably thinking now that elaine is thinking too much and she has too much free time. NO she doesnt really have a lot of free time, just that she's trying to divert her brain's attention to other stuff. lol, my whole point is, no one is perfect, and we shouldn't try to make ourselves perfect ( or at least, don't try extremely hard). having disney syndrome sucks cause we try to hide ourselves half the time and we end up not knowing ourselves at all.

im writing all this crap cux msn is not working with me here so i don't have ppl to bombard my stuff to. lol

on wikipedia:

A double standard refers to the treatment of one classification of people differently than other groups of people

The Concise Oxford English Dictionary

a rule or principle applied more strictly to some people than to others (or to oneself)

i know that EVERYONE has double standards ( cux of our natural tendency to favour ourselves more than others) but some just feel a lot more privileged than others. so much more that their character has become very inconsistent and hard to predict. it's not something that i feel very comfortable about. and i wished i never saw this side.