your secrets are safe with me.

lookingback on previous posts, i think i sounded like i was gg to commit suicide. okay no i was not, just v stressed and worried about alot of stuff in school.

anw pageant is over! though i didn't win anything, im really quite happy that everything is over.. of cux winning would be icing on the cake, but seriously, u would have thought that i had won judging from how happy i was that night..

post pageant days are fun with late night tcs and hanging out with friends:D just that i kinda forgot the whole main point of ntu--studying. oops. but i love school and i love studying too!

and i just wanna thank my friends who got worried for me; sorry that i got u guys worried but i really appreciate it:D

mostly, i thank friends who are there for me.

i hate crying in front of others; it really shows how vulnerable i am.
i know that im weak, and i yearn to be stronger.
but in the end, i'm just a person who doesn't have a clue.

im frustrated, annoyed and a bit disappointed.

i don't want anyone to feel obligated, nor anyone to feel like they gotta sacrifice something better in order to be a friend. i'd be very happy if u can come, but not if i feel like u didn't want to but yet u do because u feel obligated. it's not so complex if u think about it. if u have something on, then don't go. don't feel so bad about it.

it's that simple.

disclaimer: i really appreciate your efforts, but i can't help feeling the way im feeling.