your secrets are safe with me.

this is an uphill sloping task! but i shall do it and i will make it ! and the Lord will guide me through my whole character building process cause i know he is around((:

and being ambivalent about tons of stuff, it's exhausting.
and people, they are never what i percieve them to be.
and time, it's never enough.

i'm complaining about a lot of things, but im just adjusting to new people, new kinds of people, new environments and new politics.

actually it's just the latter.

coming to terms with everything that's been happening is much too difficult. i know it's a very very conscious decision, and i'm probably reading too much into everything that surrounds me. but im struggling with my choice every waking moment of the day. i don't know. don't ask me why. just tell me to relax.

and my friend, if u do visit my blog and see this, u can never lose what u never had. they aren't friends, and my friendship will never be lost.

judgement..i never thought it would come to me. and seriously, i'm not sure if i enjoy being under the scrutiny of others. i never felt comfortable in my own skin before, i always wanted to be someone else or just hide under everything. i'm scared what this might do to me. i just want to be happy. not pretty, not famous, and most of all, not notorious. so please. don't take away the little sense of pride i have in myself.

school has finally started!

it has been a rather busy week for me with everything coming together after 9 months... moving in hall, having foc ( freshie orientation camp not free of charge), having business orientation, and lects! ugh. the last item on the list made me shudder.

still adjusting to my condo like hostel( which is not too difficult in the material sense). Rather, the lack of internet in my room and my family makes me feel a little lonely and homesick sometimes! thank goodness i went for my hall camp and made new friends! but still, nothing compares to home((:

lately i've been having loss of words which is kinda weird, considering that it never really happened to me in my life before! it's really weird, maybe my boring life has sucked all conversational topics out of me and it's really really a bad time to be tongue-tied when youre trying to click with new people. HELP! it really sucks.